How is everyone??

Can anyone remember when we all used to be friends?

so weird.

im officially a nurse. wow.

its pretty hectic sometimes. i do love it though. i wish for nothing more.

so, im single. thats great. i will always have one love, but ..eh..its never going to be right.

so i need to write. i always have a million things to say until i start to type.

this figures.

I still love him and i want over him.

i wonder if he will ever grow up, hes fine unless hes with me.

i guess that i can write what i really feel here.

noone to watch over my shoulders...to breathe down my neck.

i hate the site of him. i hate his touch.

i miss my live. my life. my happy days.

I wish he knew how i felt.

hahaahahahhahahahahahahahhahahahahahahhahaa.

She's hearing voices call her
She's hearing voices warn her
She just can't sleep in her bed
She just can't sleep
She's falling down the stairs
She's tearing out her hair
She's screaming my name, in the night
To keep her warm

I really hate to write this all out, but if i dont ....Im gonna have a nervous breakdown.

My life consists of work and school, both full time. . . and studying.

Im heading on a god awful path of Doom. Im doing well so far, but Jeremy isnt.

He stopped ccc, but picked up mad alcohol. He pushed me in the floor today, the first time hes done anything like that in a long ass time.

I thought things had changed, but no.

I left. I went shopping.

I came back with nothing because im TOO FAT to fit the clothes.

I hate shopping , i hate being disgusting.

I miss jeremy like fucking crazy. Why do i have to get so attatached. So, i head back to jeremys(because i live there)

...and he throws me out. I get in an argument with his no good Fucking dad because i want my shit.

I hate life, im a nervous wreck, im scared of failing out of school, i have noone i can really just FUCKING talk to.

I miss Jeremy, im having money issues, I cant study

Rawr, i fucking hate life.

WHATS WORSE???? I hate being sad. I try to hide my sadness. I want to be happy.

 no.fighting.please.

not on my journal.

Rawr.

Just think about how much fun you used to have and think about you wouldnt change til you were ready. You cant really influence people unless they want to be influenced.